It's Just Another Life

2007-12-15T17:11:00.000-08:00

it's just too complicatedly lazy piece of life that i have here...

blog? yeah i ll try to post something here to keep it alive :D who's still following it up? hahahhahaha... it's worst than waiting for armageddon..

my life has been disarray lately for exam, as usual for a person with bad time management and excessive worries...

so far i have learnt to GROW UP!!! lol...maturity... everyone has been pushing the trigger button for maturity in my system. This is because i go to uni with fukin old people... -.-

more... i am also more professional! yes... after been warned 3 times... who wanna be that kid that has to sit in the corner for punishment for every class?

yet.. i m still dazzled by how fast time pass?

but despite this, i am totally determine to make things happen that by the end of this academic year, i will be entirely different person altogether.

although...i love to make jokes... how should i stop? a lot have said i should go to paediatrics than dreaming to be a surgeon... (you dont want a surgeon that crack jokes about wrongly snapping one of your nerve off - unless i can afford medical malpractise insurance or jail term?)

plus...i attended my grad ceremony last week...ohh how amazing to hear:

'Mr Suyanto Suyanto, Bachelor of Science in Biomedical Sciences Honours' (of coz that idiot forget to say the first class which i will be really proud to show off in front of the audience and camera...hahahahahhaha)

And the chancelor congratulated me: 'Well done young man, you did impresively well.. first class (i was laughing loud in my heart by this time... hahahahahahhahaaha) so what are you doing with your life now?

My glorious answer was: 'I am currently looking for a job to be a chancellor..i mean newcastle uni chancellor to replace you...even if i have to wait till it happens'

I was just kiddin, of coz my reply: 'i am a medical student now [will be trained as a fukin lifeless doctor..can u believe?]'

Of coz i put this right to the end, i was late for my grad ceremony and everyone has to wait for me. can u believe it? but hey..who cares...they have to wait for Suyanto Suyanto no matter what...where on earth can u find another person with such a name!

in conclusion, enough for my first post after ages... and enough of being immature, too self-conscious, and rebellious 'kid' ... now i am a medical student and be trained as a doctor, so i will behave like ONE!!

Yes....how scary it sounds....i will be a doctor ------- hope the med school made a right decision in accepting me!

Good day n Bad day

2007-02-22T15:09:00.000-08:00

hahaha...finally i decided to update my blog. Well first of all I m happy to secure one med school, at least now i can concentrate on my dissertation n exam. Had a really bad day yesterday after misunderstood the break time; caused me to be an hour late to my project. My supervisor seemed to be pissed as he did most of the work for me n i always late anyway.. -.- Even worse, i screwed up once he passed me the work. I put into wrong tube..using birjou instead of universal for centrifugation... lol ...and i cant believe it....i dropped my birjou into the universal resulting in the marking ink of the birjou to dissolve with the solution and turning the whole thing green! I cant believe it! The bad luck hit again, i dropped whole box of pippete tip.... -.- and thanks to me my green solution did not work with FACS machine... -.- uhh.. i was really upset and down.

today has not been esp good day for project too...i screwed up but in amendable mistakes...hence learning a lot... i m nackered... off i am to read my papers...

have a nice Chinese New Year... Hope u guys had a good new yr..

God bless

Friendship?

2006-12-16T10:11:00.000-08:00

We always confuse and not sure who are our real friends in time of need. Do you? I always ask this question who will stick out their neck for me in time of need? Who if there is after all? So far, I have identified a few of my hardcore die-hard mates in college who had been tested over time...in time of needs, they definitely helped me out and in time of joy.. we shared it together. Hey, i miss that moment. But....we have been apart for a few years since I moved to england for uni. Would they change? Will they be the same as I always want them to be? Will everything be as back then? Anyway, the fact that everything changes over time, will not surprise me if they do change. I change, and it will be naive if I assume they dont change! Dont ASSUME cause when u assume you make an ASS out of U and ME = ASS-U-ME! see.....that's a logic behind that! hahaha

So, once if u are ever and ever be sure that he/she is your friend, how can u be sure that's just as much as it will go? U like him/her but does that mean u love him/her? Hmm..that's a real dilemma... i will never ever want to get into that kindda awkward situation. Imagine.. BUT I have been there and I am sure most of you people had or worst is you are into that kindda disaster NOW. Wheuuww.....man..God bless you then. I will say dont spoil your friendship and trade it for something that you cant be sure of. I am not an expert in this complicated field BUT definitely I know the limit for this thing. I have been there before and I screwed all of them. So for now, if you like or potentially love somebody, stay away from word friend..let them know or just give them hint, no friendship is welcomed...either bring it on or bugger off! hahhaa..not in that sense of course... anyway..dont listen to me or you will end up like me.. hahaha...you know wad..

With love,
XXX

Fall from grace...

2006-12-12T06:41:00.000-08:00

How conservative are you?

Guess I was a conservative person, loved to pray and went to church!

Now...not so conservative in that sense, church has been occassional playing ground. Well in my heart, I believe in conservative values but most people look at me as liberal sort of person. If u ask me republican or democrats? You'll know my answer, a staunch republican. Luckily, I aint no American hence I aint not required to choose either.

The meaning being a christian, a new christian convert?
I always proud to be christian and the values of forgiveness, love, compassion and freedom through the teaching of Jesus Christ. To be a christian is a hard work -really- it requires me to be of that taught by Jesus. However, if I just take a look around...the environment is really not so supportive. The modern values have replaced old good conservative, family-orientated values. Social fabrics breakdown are not just a concept, it is reality and is happening faster than ever. Oh...the pressure is there and I have managed to survive most of them and hopefully I will prevail for the rest of my life. But it does come at a cost. I have traded-in some core values of me as a christian to the pressure with the excuse of fitting in. Do I really have to do all of that? Is that what God want of me? or is that what I want God's teachings to be?

The world is an escalator that moves down, holding me as long as possible to reach the top...

".........But WITHOUT Faith it is IMPOSSIBLE to PLEASE Him; for he that cometh to God MUST believe that He IS, and that He IS a rewarder of them that DILIGENTLY seek Him." Hebrew 11:16

Life..

2006-12-12T06:22:00.000-08:00

Always wondering what is the purpose of this life. Imagine, wad u achieve all be gone in da next 50+ years. You cant run away from death, so why should we work so hard for this life? We should have just enough everything to live a good life, no excessive work needed - we dont need to be super rich of which we will definitely not carry them with us to death. In that sense- to death do we apart.

But... this has not answered the core meaning of life. Wad is life for? Is it just a boring, repetitive cycle of activities until death knocks at our door? If so, then why should we live at the first place where the purpose is unknown. I always believe everything happens for a purpose. I believe life has its meaning and everyone has a purpose in life.

So wad is your calling? I really wanna hear from you.

Hey! New Blog..

2006-12-11T13:36:00.000-08:00

Just believe me...a lazy person starts a new blog! WOW!!!!! again...WOWWWWWWW!!!! ok..see how long do I take to kill this yet - another new hobby off? .... Credits to sherly...hahaha...felt challenged to start my blog... a lot to answer, too little to write... ;)